Good Bye Margot Rose

I'm sorry...Speaking seems a futile effort,
I'm sorry...Even as sound leaves my lips.
I'm sorry...My tears can not help your pain,
I'm sorry...They can not ease your broken heart.
I'm sorry...My thoughts will not formulate to words,
I'm sorry...I do not even know where to begin.
I'm sorry...My heart screams to communicate,
I'm sorry...But all I am able to say is "I'm sorry."

Prayer for Margot Rose

Stop--A devastating point.
What?
Beat--I must have skipped one.
No.
Breathe--I have forgotten how.
Oh, God.
Sit--Strength has been sapped.
Help.
Silent--Words are inadequate.
Oh, God.
Wait--impossible to move.
Please,
Pray--a desperate utterance.
mercy.

Beseeching the Father, on behalf of baby Margot Rose.
Thus far, no change in the swelling of her brain...and she is non-responsive. Lord, we ask for a miracle, a touch of your hand on this young one.
:Updates to come:

.long time no see.

hi. it's me. just a wretched sinner, one of millions. i'm still searching for grace, for peace, for love. i know i'm far from perfect, and i never expect to be more than wayward, but i'm slowly making my way home. my journey may seem misguided, and often times it is because i was never great at stopping to ask for directions, and sometimes i get stuck in my own way--ok, i get stuck a lot. sometimes no one can help me get out of my own mess, sometimes i feel totally lost and "out of the service area," sometimes i break down frustrated by the hazards along the way, or i face obstacles i feel incapable to overcoming and try to find someway around them. i've have had to cross perilous bridges, build a few, and have burned others...sometimes i am as hazardous my surroundings. i learn slowly, but i am learning. some days you will find me determined, confident, self-assured...other times, not so much. i get discouraged, and so i greatly rely on my traveling companions, without whom the progress down this road would be impossible. i have be lead to water by some, and onto detours by others, some walk beside you for awhile, some pass you by, others sit waiting for a hand out, some sit with you for a time. today i'm plodding, not trudging, not running, just making my way, i may not be as focused as i am determined, by i know my general heading, and that's where i'm going. one foot in front of the other...one step at a time. you can walk with me, we can share experiences, and stories, mistakes and lessons, fears and joys, roadblocks and junctions, hopes, goals and dreams. i don't know how exactly the road will look up ahead, but i'm going, i hope to share some of the journey with you...maybe someday i can encourage you as i've been by others. But you'll find me, heading this way...and as to the Finish, well, i hope i'll see you there! until then, i'll be searching along the way.